Breathe

A Few Maps To Navigate…I don’t know what number.

I do not live now…

I survive.

I grab hold of this moment like

It’s the only thing keeping me alive.

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Breathe.

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The hungry dark grins at my wounds,

It launches and thrashes at my words

as I write…

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Breathe.

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It will not stop.

It’s far too hungry for my liking.

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I cannot live in my head

like this anymore.

The darkness keeps clawing,

Begging,

Releasing,

And suffocating.

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Breathe.

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I do not like this time.

It consumes my thoughts

and drives me mad.

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I’m riding this coaster like

I’m running low on time…

Aren’t I?

I don’t want time to be my friend.

It takes everything from me.

It robs me.

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This life is so unfair…

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Breathe. Your OVERREACTING

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I can’t do it any longer.

The darkness is grabbing me.

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I talk about healing…

I talk about the enemies we face

I say all these things…

But Im still learning to follow myself.

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God—

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Breathe.

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The darkness interrupts me like

I’m an inconvenience…

Let me speak.

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I’m angry.

I’m so darn angry.

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Stop Lying To Yourself

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God please get me out this circle

This isn’t like me.

How can I say one is my enemy

When they have done so much for me?

God I’m lost,

I can admit that.

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Breathe.

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I want it to stop yelling at me.

This whole thing is apart of its game.

I’m going insane.

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I’ll turn around and be told it’ll be ok…

But when has it ever?

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BREATHE

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Please just listen!!

I just want to be me again

Breathe.

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Please just let me be me again

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Breathe.

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Wait—

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Breathe

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I-

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I SAID BREATHE

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“Healing is a process.”

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“Hey yall wanna go to the pool?

Come on it’ll be fun!”

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“Y’all wanna listen to music?

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Stop doing that

Don’t listen to—

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BREATHE.

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Please I just want to be me—

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BE QUIET You never listen!!!

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Me: ⬆️🤍🦋✨